Old me nothing much

This morning i was cleaning my drawer while watching AXN. my mind was set on Contender Asia. i was curious who will win in the next fight DZHABAR vs JOHN WAYNE PARR. they are both good fighters. John Wayne Parr is older and has more experience while dzhabar is younger but agile and packs a powerful right punch. then i saw my picture album. i saw my high school picture. as i looked at it. it made me think of what kind of a person i was back then. i was stubborn i was a brat and an easy go lucky person. i don't care much for school i always cut class. always involved in a fight. i don't have clear perspective of goals in my future. i might say i was a bit fearless. i don't really care what happens back then. I've been ganged-up and beaten during Junior Senior Prompt two times. i cried but i still stood up, what can i do against many. i don't really have a solid friend who will never leave me in a fight. most of my friends back then where afraid of getting into a fight. always fight alone mentally and physically. i don't know why i always end up in a fight. as much as i can i really avoid to fight or make enemies. theres something about me that anywhere i go fighting seems to follow me. it was when i was in college when i fell in-love. fighting suddenly stopped following me. i became cautious. love changed me. i started to have fear, and maybe because of watching action movies and seeing the effect of a violent life. i don't want my love ones to be involved in my own fight. there was this sense of responsibility. i really changed. the effect of movies and having to love.